The River Head, Riverbank and the Tributaries



Standing on the riverbank of the Riverhead, and this is where all the shit went down. Trauma. Pain. Awfulness. Abuse. Warfare. Everything falls into the river and starts floating down stream. At one point, the river splits into several different tributaries.

And one of the tributaries, it is a constant flow of go, go, go. Never stopping to assess what happened on the riverbank because it’s too painful. They can suffer from depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, addiction or other mental health conditions.

A second tributary, has an nearly exact opposite expression  - frozen or catatonic. Unable to move. Frozen in time and unable to make decisions. They can suffer from depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, addiction or other mental health conditions.

The third tributary, is somewhere in between the two - panic strikes in unpredictable times. Seemingly at one moment, everything is fine, then the heart starts beating faster, sweat starts appearing on the face, and breathing becomes labored. They can suffer from depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, addiction or other mental health conditions.

Three different tributaries, same river. They can suffer from depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, addiction or other mental health conditions.

To address this systemically, and to prevent future generations of suffering, we need to go from the tributaries back upstream to fix this. 


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The Riverbank 

The River Head

Tributaries 

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